A lot of women believe they keep choosing the wrong people. They wonder why every relationship seems to leave them feeling unheard, emotionally alone, or responsible for holding everything together. But what if the repeating pattern isn’t only the person you choose? What if it’s what happens inside you when something feels wrong? In this episode, Carina explores why women can recognise that something has hurt them, then immediately begin questioning their own experience. They ask: “Am I overreacting?” “Is this bad enough?” “Would anyone else be upset by this?” Because sometimes the pattern repeats at the moment you stop trusting what you felt and begin negotiating with your own reality. In this episode, we explore:Why women ask other people for permission to trust their own experienceHow emotional dismissal can slowly erode self-trustWhy you may keep moving the line for what counts as “bad enough”How understanding someone else’s behaviour can become a way of abandoning yourselfWhy questioning your reality may once have helped you preserve connectionWhat becomes possible when you stop cross-examining your own feelings If you’ve ever found yourself thinking: “Maybe I’m being too sensitive.” “They didn’t mean it like that.” “Other women have it worse.” “Am I allowed to take this seriously?” This episode is for you. Because you do not need a unanimous verdict before your experience becomes real. If this episode resonated with you, I'd love to continue the conversation through my weekly email. It's not a traditional newsletter. It's a written coaching conversation. One new way of seeing yourself each week, straight into your inbox. → Join the Conversation — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. Every week, she invites listeners into the conversations she's already having with the women she works with. Conversations about survival, self-abandonment, emotional exhaustion, and what becomes possible when we begin seeing ourselves differently. Her work helps women recognise the survival patterns they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Music from Uppbeat Mountaineer — Juciest License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

Have you caught yourself thinking... “I don’t feel like myself anymore”? Maybe your life still looks mostly the same.  You are still working, parenting, answering messages, remembering what everyone needs and keeping everything moving.  But somewhere underneath all of that, you no longer recognise the woman doing it. In this episode, Carina explores why feeling lost does not always mean you have drifted away from yourself. Sometimes it is what happens when the version of you who knew how to survive no longer fits, but the woman you are becoming still feels unfamiliar. Because healing does not always feel like coming home straight away. Sometimes it feels like losing the map. In this episode, we explore: Why you may no longer want to return to the woman you used to be  What happens when familiar survival roles begin to loosen  Why saying no, asking for space or behaving differently can feel unsettling  How the nervous system can mistake familiar roles for safety  Why feeling unlike yourself does not necessarily mean you are going backwards  What it means to become someone you have never had room to be before If you have ever found yourself thinking: “I just want to feel like myself again.” “This isn’t like me.” “I don’t know who I am anymore.” “But I don’t want to go back to who I was either.” This conversation is for you. Because maybe you have not lost yourself. Maybe you are between identities. And maybe finding yourself is not always a return to who you were. Sometimes it is finally becoming who you never had room to be.  Listen Next If this episode opened something for you, continue with: Episode 48: Who Were You Before Survival Taught You Who You Had to Be? That episode explores the parts of you survival may have asked you to leave behind. This conversation takes the next step by asking what happens when returning to yourself does not mean returning to the past. → Listen to Episode 48 here: https://soulmedicinewithcarina.com.au/48  —Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor and host of Soul Medicine.Her work helps women recognise where survival became identity, so they can stop abandoning themselves in real time and reconnect with who they are beneath the roles they learned to perform. Music CreditMusic from Uppbeat Mountaineer — Juciest License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

A lot of women believe they have a problem with food. They tell themselves they have no willpower. That they should be more disciplined.That they should be able to control it. But what if your relationship with food makes more sense than you’ve ever allowed yourself to believe? In this episode, Carina explores why some women reach for food when life feels overwhelming, while others lose their appetite completely. On the surface, they couldn't look more different, yet both may be survival strategies. Because sometimes food is not the problem. Sometimes it is the strategy survival found. In this episode, we explore:Why emotional eating isn't simply about willpowerWhy anxiety can make eating feel almost impossible How food can become comfort, control, protection or relief Why survival repeats what once helped What becomes possible when shame is replaced with curiosity If you’ve ever found yourself thinking: "Why can't I just eat normally?" "When I'm stressed, I completely lose my appetite." "What is wrong with me?" This episode is for you. Because maybe your relationship with food makes more sense than you've ever allowed yourself to believe. If this episode resonated with you, I'd love to continue the conversation through my weekly email. It's not a traditional newsletter. It's a written coaching conversation. One new way of seeing yourself each week, straight into your inbox. → Join the Conversation — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. Every week, she invites listeners into the conversations she's already having with the women she works with. Conversations about survival, self-abandonment, emotional exhaustion, and what becomes possible when we begin seeing ourselves differently. Her work helps women recognise the survival patterns they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Music from Uppbeat Mountaineer — Juciest License code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

A lot of women believe they're "just the strong one." The peacekeeper. The responsible one. The woman everyone relies on. But what if those roles were never your personality? What if they were survival? In this episode, Carina explores why so many women mistake survival roles for who they are, and how the very patterns that once helped them feel safe can quietly become the things keeping them disconnected from themselves. Because survival has a remarkable way of disguising itself as identity. In this episode, we explore: Why so many women become the peacekeeper, the fixer, or the strong one  How survival roles quietly become identity  Why letting go of those roles can feel surprisingly unsafe  The connection between nervous system safety and self-abandonment  Why compassion creates more change than self-criticism  How recognising the role is the beginning of reconnecting with yourself  What becomes possible when you stop mistaking survival for personality If you've ever found yourself thinking: "I've always been the strong one." "It's just easier if I do it myself." "I don't really need anything." "That's just who I am." This episode is for you. Because maybe you've mistaken a survival role for your personality. And maybe the woman underneath it has been waiting for you to remember her. If this episode resonated with you, I'd love to invite you into next month's Soul Medicine Circle, where we'll continue this conversation together. Next month we're exploring: Why Does Saying No Feel Unsafe? We'll gently explore the survival roles we've been carrying, what they once protected, and why putting them down can feel so much harder than we expect. 📅 Sunday 9th August 2026 🕙 10:00 am – 11:00 am AEST 💻 Online via Zoom → https://carinabull.com.au/soul-medicine-circle Or stay connected through my newsletter/community: → Join the Conversation — Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine. Every week, she invites listeners into the conversations she's already having with the women she works with. Conversations about survival, self-abandonment, emotional exhaustion, and what becomes possible when we begin seeing ourselves differently. Her work helps women recognise the survival roles they've mistaken for who they are, so they can remember who they were before survival taught them who they had to be. Music from UppbeatMountaineer — JuciestLicense code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ

A lot of women think they're struggling because they haven't done enough healing. Another book. Another podcast. Another course. Another thing to understand. But what if the problem isn't a lack of awareness?  What if you've been trying to carry your healing alone? In this episode, Carina explores the hidden survival pattern of hyper-independence and why so many women become incredibly skilled at understanding themselves while still carrying their grief, burnout, healing, and emotional struggles alone.  Because information isn't the same as support. And awareness isn't the same as transformation. In this episode, we explore: - Why so many women try to heal everything alone- The difference between awareness and transformation- How hyper-independence becomes a survival strategy- Why support can feel uncomfortable, even when we need it- The hidden cost of carrying everything yourself- How survival becomes identity- Why healing isn't something you're meant to do alone- What real support can make possible If you've ever found yourself thinking: "I should be able to figure this out myself.""I don't want to burden anyone.""I just need more time.""I've got it." This episode is for you.  Because maybe you've already spent years proving how strong you are.  Maybe the next chapter isn't becoming stronger. Maybe the next chapter is learning you don't have to carry everything alone. ✨ If this episode resonated with you and you're ready to explore the survival patterns shaping your life beneath the surface, I'd love to invite you to explore The Survival to Self Session™. https://carinabull.com.au/survival-to-self-session ✨ Or stay connected through my newsletter/community: →  Join the Conversation —Carina Bull is a trauma-aware facilitator, intuitive mentor, and host of Soul Medicine.She helps emotionally exhausted women recognise and interrupt the survival patterns underneath over-functioning, hyper-vigilance, people-pleasing, emotional burnout, and self-abandonment so they can reconnect with themselves beneath survival mode. Music from UppbeatMountaineer — JuciestLicense code: OEPVET9VNFBLLISZ